As has happened time after time in the last few years, I have gotten a new CD that hits home in every song. This one will be on repeat until I learn what I need to from it. But I thought I would share some of the words that are the newest in the long line of lyrics that have reached me where I am and shaped my life.
All of the following words (not italics) are lyrics from the album “For Those Who Wait” by Fireflight, some from every song. (punctuation mine, please excuse grammar and typos)
Where I am at
I’m having trouble feeling all alone, will my heart ever find a home, I want to hope but sometimes I just don’t know…When your fighting to believe in a love that you can’t see, just know there is a purpose for those who wait…”Seek and you will find” they say, but I have been looking everyday, for a way past this wall that’s in front of my face. I’m on hands and knees searching for my faith, I know there’s so much at stake, but I don’t know how much more I can take, one more pat on the back saying I’ll be okay. Can’t you see my whole life is in disarray? I know you hear me, would you give me a sign?… You put me on a path I don’t understand. I’m standing on a ledge waving my hands. You’ve got me desperate. Do you see me? Do you hear me? Will you help me? You’ve got me Desperate, I know you’re my only hope…You’re the one I can trust who hears when I call. Some things I’ll never figure out, until I let my hope erase my doubt…Hoping with each new day, I‘m moving forward, I push the fear away, cause I’m so through with barely hanging on. Leaving what’s in the past behind, I come closer to crossing the line. And I wont’ stop till I get what I am fighting for
learning lessons on my way to
I’m what I have overcome…So I’m moving forward I ‘ve got momentum I’ll make mistakes and I might fall. But I won’t break, I’ve got someone saving me…. He Sees you, He’s near you, He knows your face, He knows your pain, He knows your name ….The pressure makes us stronger, the struggle makes us hunger, the hard lessons make the difference. And the difference makes it worth it…. Reach up. Don’t give up. We’re standing on the ashes with a clearer view and new perspective. …Tell me again that I am strong. Tell me again that I won’t fall. I need you here to fix me where I am wrong, take me beyond what I can see. Break me. Make me believe You have made me all I need to be. (I am strong, make me believe)
where I am heading.
I want to open up my eyes, I know that all I need is time, I’m growing stronger every single day. God, I ‘m going to lean into you now. Letting go of all my fear and doubt, I can’t do this on my own, so I give you control…And I let go… Feeling solid because I finally have my feet on the ground now…you orchestrated my escape, now I’m awake. I feel alive for the first time…Oh I know you are the reason I can breathe…I want to live, I want to lose myself in you…I ‘m alive. I am finally breathing, You’re my recovery …You Give me that feeling , a power I can believe in, You Give me the feeling I could smash straight through the ceiling, fly until I Reach the sun…
It all comes down to this, the quiet in the end, I listen for your voice, recovery begins.